I'm 15 and i know i'm depressed, though it hasn't been diagnosed yet. i think about death a lot, who would care and how much, how i would kill myself, what my suicide note would say. i randomly think in my head " i wish i was dead." i have never physically harmed myself in any way shape or form and i know i never would, i don't like pain and i know i have a future, i just have to live though high school. but one of the biggest reasons i won't do anything is i don't want to hurt my family. but i think about it a lot, i just want to now if i'm considered suicidal.
Update:I used to think i would never kill myself, but as time goes on and my depression gets worse i just don't know. i have no one to talk to, i once told my mom that i think i'm depressed and she said i think you am to, and she hasn't said anything about it, she's bipolar and was when she was my age. she should know what i'm going through, right? and when i say any thing to my dad about it, he doesn't really take it seriously and thinks its normal, i don't want to put a burden on my siblings because i know what its like to be the shoulder to cry on for my mom and I've always resented her for it. i don't really have any close friends to talk too. i just need someone to talk to but at the same time i don't feel comfortable opening up to anyone. does anyone have any suggestions on what i can do to feel better.
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It sounds like you really have a lot on your mind, and your feelings are pretty heavy and dark. Are you sure that there is no one trustworthy in your life that you can talk to, without burdening him or her? Thoughts of killing yourself, even when they pop up randomly, deserve respect. Your feelings, dark or bright, also deserve respect.
You matter, your future is important. If it doesn't seem that way now to you, there will come a time, once you are passed this phase, when all the great adventures that are waiting for you in the future, will hinge on what you choose to do now.
Your depression doesn't have to be the end of everything. It can become a journey into an interesting place, a doorway to new and unexplored ways of looking at your world.
Understand that your depression has a message for you: maybe the message is, there could be much more to your life than what is happening just now.
First, seek some help. Call a suicide hotline in your area, talk to someone who understands. Toll free in the US, you can call 1-800-273-8255.
Second, make use of other resources. There are new approaches to your problems that you haven't even thought of yet. Once you discover them, everything can change for the better in a short time.
Sending you supportive and loving feelings, with my best wishes for better times.
Well, technically yes. But in a more urgent sense, no.
It's very common to have those kinds of thoughts.. I have them almost every day. But I'm not a harm to myself. And most of the time I'm not even depressed.
Just keep them in check. :)
i thought about that stuff as a teen and as an adult but only when times have gotten rough i think everyone has had those kinds of thoughts at one time in their life but it will pass if it doesn't then you need to find someone to talk to about it.