Okay. So. This will probablu take awhile explaining but here i go. The first time i had a crush on him (lets call him joe) was in 5th grade. Then again in 7th. We became really good friends in 8th grade and we talked everyday practicaly. We were also in the same class. Then in grade 9 again

At the begining of grade 9 we talked a lot and hung out. But it was always me who had to suggest hanging out so i stopped because i wamted to see whatd he do. That was all around october. Then in december he got a girlfriend. That hurt a lot. I wasnt comfortable talking about him or to him for the most part. We would sometimes talk on fb but not a lot and hed ingnore me.

In march he was single again.

Yay! We started talking again. My feelings had gone away but i liked the fact we were friends again.

In june we began "wheeling" (before dating but still couply i guess) and things were great until around end of july. He wanted to talk about feelings and stuff. I generally dont open up to people or let them know how i am feeling. But i tried. Things were kinda awkward after that.

2 nighs ago we were talking about if i still liked him or not. I could feel him slipping away.he told me at times he thinks hes stopped but for some reason he still does. I then i guess opend up to him more than i do usually and told him how if things get tough i just give up. And i wrote this long paragraph explaining that. What he got from it was he shouldgive up because id never like him.e We argued for a bit. Then he said he was officially done. And i told him if he was to delete all of our conversations. And he did.

When i read that i kinda froze. Then i cried and balled a lot. I looked horrible im sure. I then proceeded to delete every picture of us, delete him off xbox and delete our convos. Then i stayed up all night playing zombies and cried myself to sleep

The next day he messaged me saying "this sucks because i still like you."we are now talking like we were before we were wheeling. Ifeelsad