Please help me out with this..
I'm a 17 year old girl going through a couple of difficulties now in life. My parents are on and off about divorce, the house may go on foreclosure, and I'm taking IB classes in school (senior year) Last school year, I was in and out of the hospital for migraines, stomach pains, yada yada, but I knew something else was wrong and I finally told my neurologist. I was immediately Baker Acted into a psychiatric unit for cutting and suicidal thoughts. I spent six days in the unit and was finally let out. I'm a Christian and I know that going back to God will help..a lot. And it certainly did. I've been going back to church and praying, etc for around a month now, and I felt like this was helping; however, a week ago, I started feeling depressed again.
Depression won't just go away, I am aware of this..but I felt in control again. Now, its going downhill and I don't know why. I feel empty, unloved, worthless and its hurting me big time in school. I can't concentrate and I know that in order to overcome this depression I have to put my part and fight through but I find myself unable to do anything. I just want to stay in bed for the rest of my life. My mom just asked me why I think I'm feeling this way, and I can't explain it to her and her response was that its illogical to say you're feeling down when you have no reason to be. I agree, but I don't understand..at all. )): I've been staying home for a week, missing school trying to do the same homework I cannot get myself to do and I feel like its my own fault and that I can always put in more effort.
I'm sorry its long, but I've been asking myself this these past days. I know depression doesn't go away but I have to find ways to deal, right? Can depression do that? Confuse you? I've been dealing with this for so so long that I'm just numb, and I feel comfortable feeling this way..empty and unhappy. I've become accustomed and I'm afraid to go back, to feel happy again. I want to go back to the unit, where I felt understood, but I can't because that will hurt me once it goes into my records for the future. Please help me guys.. :/ I can't answer my own questions about myself and I don't know what to do. I really can't go on like this. I feel trapped.
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I have been at the point in my life in which I felt that I was unable to achieve any feelings of happy or wanted by anyone involved in my life. I was asked as you were why I was and like you I was unable to tell them why.
I started seeing a psychologist regularly and she was able to help me discover just what had been contributing to the feelings that I had of being totally helpless and hopeless as far as my life was concerned.
I recommend that you seek out the help that a psychologist would be able to provide as that person is concerned for your well being. They have been trained in the field of mental health problems that may have arisen in other people's lives and just what to do in order for them to fully understand just what you can do in the future to prevent this from happening again.
Gee, Emily, reading all that has me depressed now. I'm really sorry to read about your difficult
life with depression, at home and at school. Getting plenty of exercise is one way to lessen the
depression-----takes your thoughts off the depression. Another is to listen to music you find
pleasant. Also, get lots of sleep to keep your mind sharp and refreshed. You said you are a
Christian (that's good!) but, at the same time, you said you feel worthless and unloved---signs of
depression----but obviously you are not worthless and unloved in the eyes of God. God has kept
you here on earth for a reason. Remember, He promised us in the Bible he wouldn't make us go
through anything we couldn't handle. I don't know where you live so I can't recommend any
specific medical center that deals with depression but I can only suggest you go to one as soon as
possible. UCLA has a good medical center that deals with depression-----only suggesting.. Perhaps
your neurologist could better assist you in that area. You have to go to one----depression is
cureable and the sooner the better because you are only 17. I'm closer to 71 (let's not push it---
I'm still in my 60s lol). The best of luck to you always, Emily, and remember this: GOD LOVE'S
YOU!
....without going into a lot of my own personal details i'd like to share that seeing a qualified counselor on a regular basis really helps because he/she is a neutral 3rd party with your best interests at heart.
someone you can actually talk to who will listen, understand and you can speak out loud all those thoughts instead of holding them inside!
I can tell provided I am enable too see your latest medication examination report about your present physical health as well as mental health.