I'm 14 years old and have been suicidal my whole life. I've tried to cover it up and bottle in my feelings but I still end up crying at night. I'm suicidal because I feel like a burden to everyone... like none of my friends are really my friends. Money has been tight and my parents have been arguing.... my parents spend a lot of money on me I know if I didn't exist then they would have plenty of money. But I don't know how to tell them how I feel... they'd blame them selves. Please help me find a way to tell them.
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with your kind permission- young lady- as you're young enough to be my daughter - a good, big, warm hug is hereby sent to you-in spite of the distance- to begin with...
you're at the utmost age of growing and flourishing in every way-of enjoying life-on one hand -and a very difficult age- too-on the other hand-even regardless of your soul problems- as if they weren't...
it sounds to me that you're depressed and/ or traumatised deeply and severely enough to urgently!!! need the professional help of a psychiatrist -in real life- in your area- someone skilled in treating people of your age- with no further delay if possible...
just tell your parents you're depressed... enough to need professional medical help...explain them exactly what you're going through ...
try to have your Family Physician there involved with what you're going through...
I hereby beg you: refrain, repeat- REFRAIN- from ANY form of even trying to self- harm or take your own life-whatsoever...
heed the fact that such a ''try''-even a ''failed'' one can leave you both physicallly and further mentally disabled for good..you obviously deserve much better than this....
Believe me, your parents would hurt so bad if you were gone. I went through a suicidal spell when my child died. I got pregnant at sixteen only to lose my baby, and I missed him so terribly, that I wanted to take my own life to be with him. But then I realized that he is in heaven, and if I committed suicide, I may not go to Heaven.
I also knew that if I left, my parents would feel the awful pain I was feeling. There is a purpose for you, you just need to find it. Don't worry about what others think of you. You are not a burden. You are a person. God made you special, a replica of himself.
Every cell in your body was designed with a specific purpose. It is a miracle that your cells know what to do and when to do it. Life in itself, the experiences, the functions in themselves are miracles.
There is so much after fourteen. One day you'll find someone who needs you. A friend, a child, a significant other. Then you'll realize, that you were never a burden. Enjoy your youth, but know that these are not the best years of your life. It gets even better if you embrace the love that created you. Love yourself so that you can love others, for there is none greater than love. If you ever need someone to talk to, contact me.
I will never give up on you.
The money they spend on you is a sign of how much they value you, and love you. If you were to end your life it would be devastating to them.
http://www.buddhanet.net/r_suicid.htm
They cannot live forever. What they can do is create a new generation so their lineage lives into the future. This is a basic instinct upon which the continued existence of the human species and any species depends. You are their future. That is why they sacrifice for you. You are more important to them than anything else in their lives.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
You must tell them the effect their money arguments are having on you. They need to work out their financial priorities, and any other arguments, out of earshot from you.
Just tell them or talk to a school counselor, whatever you do don't kill yourself. Think about it like this: you are permanently ending your life, and you can never have this life again.