I look around at other people my age (late teens) and I see them all so happy with their boy/girlfriends, and somehow I can't ever see that being me.

People tell me that I'm average looking (sometimes I'll get a "you're cute" or something) but I certainly don't feel that way. I look at myself in the mirror, and I can't ever see that person being with a guy. I'm told that I have a nice personality, sometimes too nice, and that I have a good sense of humor, but I don't think I have desirable qualities.

I feel like a completely ugly person, and I can't see how any guy might ever want me (although some do, but those are the horny/desperate a$$holes.). I don't know if there's really something wrong with me, I've asked people about it and they say I'm okay, and there isn't. I am really insecure (obviously), and part of that is because I was abused in my childhood.

But how can I get over this feeling of mine, this feeling of inadequacy and self-loathing? How can I build up my confidence?

Thank you in advance, and I'm sorry if that seemed whiny/ranty, I didn't mean for that :)