Hello everyone,so lately i have been feeling so dead inside,like there is nothing going on with my life,i feel like i am just watching others live,watching others having girlfriend or boyfriend, i don't even feel like a human anymore,just a energy or a ghost that is watching everyone,i have a few good friends but they don't understand me at all they say you'll get better,when i am out i just wanna be home and when i am home i feel like i am wasting my time,i remember when i was in elementary school it was graduation day and no one wanted to be with me (i was bullied cause i am gay) and everyone was treating me like a total freak and i remember that day of graduation running to home and slamming doors of my room and crying and yelling "God why don't you take me,do you see what i go through what are you Wiatting for just take me please" now i am in final year of high school in year 2013 i should go to college,i remember that day saying this is the day that everyone killed me,this is the day, and it is like it did something to my brain and now i feel this way,i don't enjoy life anymore i just lost every single feeling inside,i feel like i am losing so much, i know this sound weird for some of you but please reply i need someone to help me, i can't go on with life living this way,my daily routten is wake up get ready for school,come home go on computer,sleep and thats it i don't have energy to do nothing more.