Lost Cause?

I'm 17 I dropped out of school at the end of last year not because i wanted to but because of my depression, this year would have been my final year. I quit my job soon after because i cant cope with people anymore. i'm paranoid about everything. i always think people are judging me when they speak to me, even though they dont say it, they think it in their minds. i dont trust many people and prefer to keep to myself so i dont have that many friends.. but with my depression i became a pretty unpredictable and unreliable friend, i also got rid of a couple of friends who were dragging me down so now i have no friends -literally. i stay at home everyday doing nothing, because i am afraid of life, just leaving the house is scary for me because i dont want to be in view of people who can judge me and the way i look, my parents are recently seperated and it kills me that my dad is hurting over my mum, there's so much more but its hard to sum it all up.. are some people just meant to fail?

Update:

I saw a pyschologist last year when i was having the toughest times, a doctor referred me, she knew i had depression, anxiety and i had bulimia but she didn't treat me for anything. I'm angry that i did seek help and i didn't get any, i don't see why i should keep seeing a doctor who wont take me seriously, there are so many things wrong i just dont know where to start, but where to end it is a much easier thing to contemplate.

Update 3:

it's hard to talk to your friends about stuff like this when you dont have any anymore, at all. im angry with my mum, i am the eldest and i know she favours my younger sisters over me, my dad has too much on his plate to worry about me. and i know im not the only person who is going though the stuff but reguardless it's still hard when you have no support whatsoever.

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