I know, I just know I'm going to get trolls and haters for this. But I don't care. It's been eating away at me for the past.. 3 years.

So.. I've always felt.. MORE than human. I've always felt like there was something inside of me trying to get out. I've lost friends time after time because of it too, because they all thought I was crazy.

I feel like.. a wolf.

My senses are heightened, I always wish to rip an animal apart and taste their meat, and I don't feel comfortable walking around on two legs.

When I lay down in my bed I just.. Curl up there and my whole soul hurts, because I know that if I told anyone, they would never accept me. And it's a scary feeling, to know that I'm the only one I know who feels this way.

I bark, I howl, I growl, I whimper. My eyes change colors. I just.. FEEL like a wolf. But I also feel like a human. Sometimes I'll sit down and trace around my hands, and just kinda pretend they're paws.

I run on the balls of my feet. Like, the top part of them. Some people say I run on my toes. Which I do. And it's better that way.

Every day I fantasize about running through the forest with a pelt of silver on and just feel like I belong somewhere for once.

I can't even tell my closest friend because I'm so scared that she wont ever talk to me again. She'd just call me a 'wolfaboo'. And sometimes I call myself that because I feel so out of place and stupid.

Could I possibly be a mental shifter? I've heard of them before, and I think that's what I may be. Whenever I went to the zoo as a child I'd visit the wolf pens and I'd just watch them. Some would come up to the glass and stare back at me. It almost felt like I was talking to them. And for once, I felt.. at home.

Does anybody know why I feel this way.. at all? It's not that I'm scared, I just feel so alone.