looks never mattered to me. but ever since i got hurt a lot, ive become so picky and conceited. :(

i was with a guy and i broke up with him bc i wasnt attracted but we still stayed friends and guess what? i ended up loving him and he became beautiful to me. we started dating and we are on our 6 months. ive been confused the whole time [i have this horrible problems in relationships] and i never gave myself to trust him. he is a very good guy and just a few days ago i trusted him for once because i was scared and i really felt like i loved him. then between those few days, i have no physical attraction! yet when we hang out, i have him come over and we watch tv together and we cuddle. sometimes i wanna have sex. how can i want to have sex or mess around if i am not physically attracted anymore? i get hurt if he says he doesnt want to when we talk at night on the phone and i start crying and i feel pain in my chest. whats going on?