my ex girlfriend changes her mind all the time about me, if anyone else came into her life whos better looking she will leave me without a doubt. i love her so much and im always ending up holding on and hurt. i feel like a second option, i try so hard to be better it becomes obvious, which pushes her away more. it makes me feel ugly, empty and miserable. i know i could not leave her if i tried because she means so much to me. its pathetic. whenever i try talking to her about it, she says she has to go and walks off. i would literally pour my heart out to her all the time and get a "k" reply. i suffered from depression a few months ago, used to cut myself and was suicidal. i think im over that now, but she really gets me down sometimes. any tips?