Hey everyone. To start off I'd like to say I'm not religious nor do I doubt there is a higher existence, God, afterlife, etc. I'm 18. I live a pretty good life compared to many unfortunate people. I have a few close friends but they always come and go. My family is dysfunctional but I've tried to learn to live with it, I've tried various methods to erase the problems I share with my family and my personal problems but all my effort is in vain and many things get in the way of me living happily. I have a will to live and to live life to the fullest but in my 18 years of existence things have only gone down hill and it seems as though my spirit/soul is getting weaker everyday. I have a lot to live for and a lot to be thankful for but at the end of the day I know my life and the lives of those around me are pointless and the memory of all who are alive now will eventually fade away. The only point to life I see is living in love and happiness but I try and try and the world just kicks me in the ***. I'm one of the nicest, most respectful and optimistic human beings I've known. I have plenty of faults though. I know I'm capable of dealing with life's crap but I'd hate to see all my efforts (studying, helping others, improving myself) go down the drain. who's to say I won't die the day I graduate from a university? Or the day I meet the perfect girl? It would be a tragedy to some. I came here with a question but it turned into me venting to strangers on the internet. Hahahahaha. If I straight up ask 'should I kill myself?' I know plenty of you would say no but I just want to see what kind of comments, responses, reactions etc., you feel after reading this. Have a wonderful day.
Answers & Comments
When someone is as depressed as you are, it doesn't help to try to logically resolve it or tell you to not feel what you are feeling. If it were that easy, you'd be over it. I know it totally doesn't seem like it now, and that you completely think how you're feeling is reality, but, as a fellow human being who's felt very similar to what you explained, trust what I'm going to say. Your reality is not THE reality, and there is a very good chance that even though it is impossible to see that right now, if you hang on and get help, you will see a meaning in life. Make an appointment with a therapist. Save your life.
I think you need to find happiness within yourself. Think of everything you've ever wanted, the things you haven't seen, the things you haven't done. You don't need your friend or family to make you happy. Once you're happy with yourself the Rest won't phase you as much. Please don't kill yourself. Life is an adventure you'll never get to experience if you do. And don't be so worried about the future. Think of what makes you happy now. Not everything has to make a lasting impression . Sometimes living in the moment is enough. x
HI David :) life gets better sweetie :)
Suicide is never the answer. it will not give you peace. People who commit suicide go to hell (honestly). Hell is certainly not better than earth. If you did commit suicide and go to hell, you'd wish you were still on earth and in heaven. Ask for help from whoever you can--your parents, friends, family, school counselor, psychologist, doctor. do something you like: join a club or sport at school and talk to people about things you know about (computer stuff, music, etc.) and you'll make friends with people you have things in common with :) read a funny joke or watch a funny movie, and tell people the joke and funny parts :) read, write, sing, dance, art, draw, hug people, volunteer (church, thrift stores, and soup kitchens have great causes), help others (it'll help you feel better, too), act, make a scrapbook, make stuff, etc. Focus on the good things in life--another day, trees, grass, beautiful girls/hot guys, the person you're gonna marry, traveling, telling your kids stories about how you and your spouse met, teaching them what you've learned, helping others, etc. :) Take each day and appreciate it :) Life is going to get better, believe me :) Would you like to talk? If so, please let me know :) I'll pray for you and your walk and your journey with God :) God bless!! :D
the world is full of many suprises in life, stop to smell the flowers or look upon the sky we may be small but love and friends are pure never say die it will come soon enough