I know I like men, I mean, I have a boyfriend and he means everything to me. I have never been, heard of or seen such a strong relationship like ours despite our young age. I'm not being romantic, I'm being serious!
But, I can't admit to being gay. When my mum found out that I was with a guy, she asked me if I was gay, bi, just experimenting or being a jerk, and really I told her "I'm not gay. I just love him."
Really, I don't find other men attractive, nor women. I only find him attractive, I only want to be with him, but am I really gay? I want to say that I am, I know my boyfriend would love to hear it for reassurance, but I would really hate to wake up one morning and hate the fact that I slept with a guy. Though I can't see that happening, I'm not sure if I'm gay.
I was never interested in any relationship before I became close with him, I thought it was stupid despite the chicks wanting me. I only noticed him - not any chick or guy, just him.
I can say that I'm gay, but I still feel unsure. I feel different about it, like when he's with me...really, it's just beautiful. I don't see it as being gay, I'm just in love with the most beautiful personto have ever existed, That's what it feels like, but that's wierd.
Help me anyone?
Update:We've already had sex.
Answers & Comments
Zane, congratulations. You have come to the truth about love and relationships. It is not about labels but about connections. Knowing him opened up your ability to lose yourself in caring for another. I suspect that if he had been a girl your spirits would have connected. You must love whomever you love, and that requires no label. If using a label helps overcome ambivalence, use it. But as long as you know where you stand, there is no issue. And sex can wait til it happens. When it does, it will be an extension of what you have together. Via the sensitive bodies in which sentient spirits reside. Live, learn, love, don't label just to do it. Love is not a category, it is humanity. Nothing weird about that. Rather, it is profound, which the miracle of love ought to be.
Labels confuse people, they are cruel. You have love and that is what is important. For now you should just say you love him, and that sexually you are not interested in anyone else. There is nothing wrong with that statement. Give yourself time to develop the mental relationships further and they will let you know what physical desires are correct for your life.
My partner of 6 years is exactly the same as you. He loves me and wants to be only with me. If not in this relationship, he would be with a woman. We've talked about it. You're doing fine, love is the most important thing!
Auntie Kookoo
Love is a beautiful thing and you shouldn't demean it by giving it a label. You love him. So, love him. :)
Just love who you love and don't worry about labeling it.
Remember, you don't need to be anything. You have him and that's that, especially if you love him.