Okay so i am 14 years old and i am having a problem,

i use to always be soooo insecure that i would look at other girls and wish that i could be like them, i use to wish and imagine myself as them or their sister, you know?.

Then i started watching lesbian porn or porn in general and i was more attracted to the girl on girl porn i use to always rub my clit just watching porn i just loved the way that lesbians made it feel like it was SOOOO GOOD, i would watch straight porn, guy on guy porn, or shemale porn, just porn in general and i would give myself an orgasm, but lesbian porn draw me in more or atching a girl play with herself it just makes me hot.

But now i am just scarred that i might be gay because ever since my other friend came out to me and said that she was gay i started qustioning myself i mean i use to as a little girl maybe in the 7th grade it started, i use to question myself and say , Why do i like watching lesbian porn ? am i gay, but i would always just ignore. but ever since my friend came out i have just been sooo confused i feel like now every pretty or beautiful girl that i see a thought pops in my head and says oh yea their hot their sexy or how would it feel like making out with them or having them finger me. and that freaks me out because i have ALWAYS been attracted to guys and i still am just that this paranoia is making me think about it everyday i break down and cry because i would not NOT NOT want to live if i am a lesbian i mean no offense im sorry but if you were in my situation you would know., but i get so upset and paranoid that EVERY girl that i see old, ugly, pretty, young , i feel like i want to makeout with them i want them to finger me. am i HOCD because i am freaking out because i know that i like guys but now i am worried that What if i like girls more and that thinking makes me feel like i dont like guys, when i know that i do. its just that now every girl that i envy or feel insecure around i just want to make out with them.!! uggh i talk to my mom about it and she says that maybe its a phase and she sayd that she went through the same thing and she even experimented with girls but she eventually grew out of it, she says that either way she would love me. i know for a fact that i like guys but now it seems that i may be sexually attracted to girls because it gets me thinking about lesbian porn and i want to feel the way that they feel in the pornos.!! i am even starting to check girls out omg, but i feel scarrd that maybe im in denial because i use to think about it in the past that maybe now i am realizing it but i have always liked guys. WHAT DO YOU THINK IS WRONG WITH ME ,? am i lesbian or am i just always horny due to hormones ? becuase its only when i obsess about liking girls thats when i start thinking sexually or when i see a girls butt or boobs i start thinking this way.? and whenever i see a guy i started obsessing and thinking do i like girls and then i feel like i dont like them but i know that i do. i just want to have sex and feel how it is that now i am thinking about ALL OF THIS?