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The best ever thing i did was write everything in my life own on the laptop and show my best friend.

From day dot to now. It truly helps when you speak to someone who you can trust rely on and love. Someone who will help you back and not go tell everyone. Obviously you need some medical help anti depressants. Do more in your life, walk new places appreciate what you have around you. Look up Buddah relaxation or mindfulness im learning that at the moment. It basically trains you to respect what you have in life and appreciate the small things like the way your hands are or how clouds move and smell of things etc. It takes your mind off the things you dont want to think about or get down about. I used to hate life and think negative all the time. But letting out everything on paper or laptop and doing more helped me out..