I'm a decent looking female. I know that I'm not ugly. I can talk to people without feeling really awkward and I can stand up for myself if I have to. I don't mind social events, meeting new people, or being seen in public. But lately I've been feeling really negative about the way I look. There's certain things about my body & face that I constantly obsess about. I'm tall (5'9") and slender but lately I've been feeling extra tall and awkward, I feel like I'm gaining weight in the stomach area (I've always had a moderately fast metabolism so this is new), I wish I had a bigger butt, my breasts are so much bigger than the rest of me (36D), my hair is curly and dry and uncooperative (mixed race hair black and white), I have countless freckles on my nose and cheeks from the newly warm weather... I just feel like a mess, everyday, all day. I worry about how my boyfriend sees me and I even worry about how my friends see me and if they talk about me behind my back about the way I look. I don't know if this is normal or not. I'm always researching ways to make my hair look better, my skin, my body, and my makeup. I've grown kind of obsessef with working out everyday, even when my muscles are sore and obviously need a rest. I also feel very confused about my future. I'm graduating high school in about a month and I had planned on enlisting in the Army Reserve but now i'm not sure I want to do it. I just feel confused and down about myself. Is this normal?