so when i was 16

i was sent to a boy's home for the summer while the fam went on vacation with out me

i stayed there for one month, and was initiated into a gang, bullied and jumped

when i left the house and came back home (on the other side of town)

i stayed there, i stayed in my basement room for a month just scared

now a year later, i still have problems walking around without being scared

i never go to the mall or go out in the day, only the night with cab fair

and a bladed weapon

i had a job but i quit and do to my fear i can't find a job where i can recieve a ride home

please help me, i'm like a prisoner in my house

I have lived in canada all my life, but the town i live in is getting more violent each month

this condition has caused me to lose all trust in any person i meet, beside's my family, but i have my doubt's,

i can't even trust my friends