Wow! You really do need help! do you have a job? I suggest maybe an apartment. It has to be difficult. Maybe you are better off putting a few of them up for adoption. Even though you love your kids, you hvae to do whats best of rthem because you are their mother. If what's best for them is a life with someone else who can take care of them better and spend more time with them, then maybe that's what you need. You are only 26 and still have more than a few years ahead of you. You are loved by your children, and they are your solace. take a deep breath and say, I am Loved. Look in the mirror and say, I am beautiful and I am smart. You will get somewhere. I promise. You'll meet somone who's right for you and you will be moving on the right track. You just have to figure out something in between that time to get the process moving. Dump your boyfriend! Who cares wha the says? if he can't stand you, then leave him. Find someone else who's better! It doesn't sound like you are going after the right kind of guy. Keep trying. Don't give up. life will get better. Promise.

Well obviously something is wrong with you if none of your ex lovers hate you and your own mother wants you out of her house. Go see a shrink, seriously.