Please don't kill yourself! Your life is so precious! The best thing to do is see a counselor or doctor who can help you rise above the gloom and despair. I used to feel like you did, since I was a failure at everything, and then I told someone. She begged me not to do it, and I'm so glad to be alive now. The fact that you're a college sophomore shows that you are intelligent. The fact that you haven't killed yourself after your parents died shows that you are strong and resilient. Also, 26 is very young. Don't stoop to the horrible mentality of your siblings. They are not superior to you. In fact, since they look down on you, that shows that they lack character. My advice to you is to talk to a health professional about how you feel. It will be so relieving! Even though the current economy is terrible, there is still hope for you to find that dream job! I know somebody who didn't know what they wanted to do in life till they were 28 years old, and then they had a wonderful career for more than 20 years. I can't stress how promising the future is for you. Just believe in yourself and talk to somebody who will have your interests at heart!

I know exactly how you feel, I feel the same way right now. Please though, don't do this. You may think that no one cares about you, or feel like you have no one to talk to but someone out there cares about. Before you make the decision to end your life please just talk to someone, maybe a mental health specialist. You have so much to live for, you are smart, your strong and you are in college which means you are reaching your goals. I know that right now everything seem terrible, like one time I went home and I just cried. I cried for about an hour and my life isn't even that bad, I just feel so alone and empty but I am still here today fighting through my sadness and hopefully I will be able to see someone that can help me soon. Do not listen to your siblings, ignore them and find someone to talk to. I hope you feel better. Please do not end your life!