I have a good life compared to other. My family is a bit messed up but i think thats okay, we deal.

Anyways, these past days im not sure what im doing. like emotionally and mentally.

I just started sophmore year and i sit at a table that was composed of good friends. this year, the table has grown and more people came, which i was fine with. except this one girl came, and i find myself resenting her. she isnt friendly and she came because she started drama with everyone else she used to sit with. this year she brought "cheer friends" which are newly incomming freshmen. I dont like them at all and i want to move since they obviously dont like me back. it feels terrible. i try to be friendly and say hi but they blow me off and my friends adore them all, so i feel they choose them over me.

Then theres this other boy woh i was friends with. we bonded because were very similar although hes obsessed with becomming popular and eventually just kinda forgot about me. i thought id get over it, even though it hurt. and i find myself having a really nasty attitude towards him. i dont want to feel this way, but i do.

What should i do? Everyone seems happy but i feel really lost, im not sure what i should feel anymore. All answers are appreciated. Thankyou.