Ok guys... Well I feel horribly trashy. I'm 13 almost 14. I've liked this guy for a while. I've known him since I was 10. He is 14. He doesn't talk much and is shy. Kind of emo you know? Like me. We talk sometimes. Not enough for me. Well Friday was all night skate. And I went and so did he. We hugged and sat down together. I wanted him to like me and find my attractive. So I whispered into his ear "Come to the back." So we both walked to the back. We sat in a corner. Nobody was around. I undid he belt buckle. And I said "Tell me if you want me to stop." He said "Keep going." He unbuttoned his pants. And I slid my hand in his pants and stroked him. He said "Are you a virgin?" I said yes. He said "I'm being real. Are you?" I was shocked cause it made me feel trashy. I replied yes again. And he said "How many times have you done this??" I said "Just this once." He replied "It seems that you've done it more than once. You act like a pro." I was kind of mad. So I said "Come on lets go." So we went back to sitting. I asked him if it would be awkward between us now. He said no, it would change everything and he wanted to date me. I asked him if he was a virgin. But he didn't answer. But when I did it, you know. He acted nervous. Now I feel trashy. I wish I hadn't of done it. But I can't help it. My hormones at 13... They are everywhere. What do I do? Honestly, I'm not a hoe. I've never even made out with a guy. Never sent pictures. Nothing. I want to have sex sometimes. But others I want to wait.