I'll tell you what I tolled my best friend ( which is a girl ) who seemed to have this exact same question, when people tell you "you cant do it" tell them you can do it and then shuve it in there face because it feels great. I know what it feels like to not have anyone to talk to, being more outgoing and open to meeting more people really does help, try to have a live and let live way of living, and if I might say it seems like you've gone through alot of things in your life so far, how does someone who has gone threw all that not be a strong person, a strong person can stand on there own, I'm not trying to say you don't need anyone but you can pull threw till you realize that maybe that person who you can talk to is close or that he/she is out there maybe an old friend or a new one but you can make it till they come along just try an have a better out look be open to just going out and meeting new people, remember your not trying to be someone els so don't worry what people say to you your a strong person and trust me just keep moving along and you will see where that light at the end of the tunnel is

well if you want to let a friend in close to you..

http://www.wikihow.com/Accept-Christ-As-Your-Savio...

here are the steps.

if you do this you wont feel lonely anymore :)

don't let them mock you.. you as a person are important to God and I say you can lose weight

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if you get this tea it will reduce hunger and increase quality of health.

go on a all organic diet to lose weight best way to go.

Best wishes,

Mr.