First off guys I'm going to explain my problems in the next paragraph.
What I'm trying to get out of the post is help.. advice... whatever you can provide would be awesome.
Hey guys! My name is bobby, and I have a problem. Even tho I always have a smile on my face a lot is hiding behind it. After having depression for about a year I know honestly wouldn't care if I stay a live. My depression is mostly cause from "bullying". I have scares all over my arms...... My father is a total work junkie who thinks I'm a complete waste of his sperm...... My mother, I'm luckey to see her once a month. I litterally have nobody I can talk to too get all this **** off my mind. I can't find a single perpose to live..... I'm most likely will not try to kill myself again, but I came pretty damn close a few times( tryed ODing on pills). Even tho my parent know I'm like this it seems like it's nothing to them. So why should I stay on this earth. I have nobody to love, and nobody to love me. About 2 years ago
I started doing drugs to hopefully make me feel better. My drug list is meth, coke, weed, liquor, and all pills.
Even tho it makes me happy for a little bit when I come back to reality I totally want to die. I want to shoot myself in the face..... I have nobody it seems like. Mostly the reason I do drugs is like I said It takes me out of reality, and if I don't end up killing myself, I'll do it with drugs....
Someone please help me I don't know what to do. My depression becomes worse everyday it seems like.
thanks for reading all the and please if you know anything I should do please tell me.
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I honestly dont blame you for taking drugs. Its a bandaid situation and it may make things worse for you in the future, but if i would rather have someone take drugs then kill them selves. Drugs may also kill you, but there is hope for getting better
I also started doing drugs at a young age, I have done almost every drug in the book. Its something I still struggle with, but I am working on it. I do stay sober normally, but sometimes I slip up.
But talk to a phycitrist, it could be something else, you may have some sort of disorder, which is making you to take drugs.
If you wont/cant, Find something you like to do, that makes you feel your good at doing it. Like I can do the rubix cube really fast and play guitar, it makes me feel proud of my self when i play it.
Find your talent, we all have a talent, just find out what it is. Find what you WANT to do, then it is most likely your talent. It will do something a drug can not do, it will make you proud
Sunshine let the sun make you shine. Darling dont kill yourself, thtd be awful. We all have a purpose you just havent found yours. Stop doing drugs and plllllzzzzz dont kill yourself! I will start bawling if ya do!!! I hate your father he sounds like a man ***** and the sun will shine for yall one day! Bobby i hope you will be alright. Think happy thoughts. Take your depression out on like maybe drawing, painting or writing or something. Your story makes me sad. That is why i helped you. Doll yall got something to live for! Email me darlin~ [email protected]
Dear i hope it gets better and have a pocket full of sunshine today! You are amazing. Hope it helped! Have a sunny day! ~ Topaz Sun
Look I'm goin to tell you my part like anyone else would, we all know life is not perfect unless your chuck Norris (laugh here) I seriously thought about ending my life and I'm not Gunna get UNO religion bcyz I don't know who u r but we were brought here soooooo we have a reason to be here things will get better... I know this hang in there don't kill urself get a job,girlfriend/boyfriend , find a hobby :)